Title: Beside the Sun at Dawn
Author: James Walkswithwind
Series: Scene shots
Archive: list archives
Disclaimer: Not mine, no profit made
Beside the Sun at Dawn
She kinda likes it. She isn't sure she ought to - she remembers,
growing up, that things like that were wrong. Nobody talked about it
at all until high school, then Jason got beat up and her mother
explained to her why. Everybody at school said he had it coming.
Fred doesn't remember what she thought about it, back then. She
doesn't really know what she ought to think about it, now. But nobody
has asked her, and nobody else seems to mind. Cordelia even thinks
She can tell Angel doesn't like it, but she isn't so sure it's because
they're two guys. Vampires might not have the same moral code as
humans, anyhow. Even souled ones. But she thinks maybe it isn't
because it's just two guys. She thinks maybe it's because it's them.
She hasn't asked anyone if it's really all right. This is LA, after
all, and things are OK here when they aren't OK anywhere else. There
are monsters here, after all, and back home the monsters under the bed
and in the closet were bad things. Here, they're mostly bad things.
Sometimes they're not. They had dinner with a monster just yesterday,
and he told jokes and made her laugh.
So maybe sometimes this is OK. For two guys to be in love and nobody
says anything. Because she knows if anyone deserves to be happy, it's
her new friends. They've been through so much that those Powers they
talk about owe them something. She thinks they do, anyway, even
though nobody asked her. She'll tell them if they do.
In the meantime, she'll concentrate on learning about the world five
years later, and making things that will help them when they have to
fight the bad monsters, and learn how to talk without making people's
eyes glaze over. Because they do, she can tell - but they always
have. Even when she was a little girl. Her parents always thought it
She doesn't think she ought to tell them about this, though. She's
not sure they'd like it, and she doesn't want to cause that sort of
trouble. Of course, she didn't think they'd approve of her killing
monsters for a living, either. Maybe they wouldn't mind, if she
explained that no one else is really right for them. It'd be
different if Wesley was a professor at the college, and Gunn was
football player. Then there wouldn't be anything really bad in their
lives and they could date normal girls who didn't know about monsters.
But they aren't, and they can't, and Fred thinks...that maybe that
makes it OK. And maybe it's supposed to be.