Title : Watch the Rain
Author : Gunbunny
E-Mail : firstname.lastname@example.org
Fandom : Angel
Pairing : Gunn/Wes
Rating : Sex! Unexpurgated sex! Men having sex with other men!
Summary : Gunn's not getting involved. He isn't.
Disclaimer : Joss owns 'em.
Feedback : I accept burnt offerings and alcohol.
Dedication : Jaq, for betaing and laughing at the fact that my
vocabulary more closely
resembles Wesley's than Gunn's.
Archive : http://kabukivice.com/underskin, anywhere else feel free.
The light from the streetlamp glints off the wet sidewalk. Looks like
an oil slick. Gunn's
read stuff and seen films where the rain comes and makes everything
clean. Never seen it
himself. Not in LA, not where he could see it. Rain just makes shit
wet. From where he's
sitting on the kerb, he pokes at a small puddle with his foot.
A hand on his shoulder makes him look up. Wes is crouched behind him,
said hand gripping
Gunn's shoulder. Gunn bets Wes has seen the kind of rain that makes
Shit, he comes from a country where it rains all the fucking time as it
is, though all the films
he's seen of English towns just make them look grey and depressed.
No-one shoots shit
about being happy in England. It's all gotta be depressing, especially
if you inhabit
soap-land. Seems you're not allowed to live anywhere that's not
depressing if you're in
soap in England. Wes' voice interrupts his train of thought again.
"Are you coming inside
or have you decided to live out your life on the pavement?"
Gunn nods. "It's got potential."
"Living on the pavement or coming inside? Because inside, we have
surfaces to sit on that
aren't wet." Wes replies, straightening, and somehow that's making Gunn
get up with him. The invisible pull gets him to follow Wes inside, too,
and the little voice in
the back of his skull points out that he's got no other business
possible in this part of town
except to go see Wes.
Once inside, they follow the pre-marked route, made easy with practice,
of pulling off shirts
and pressing bodies together, hands grasping hot and heavy on skin,
kisses rough and
wet, grading to climaxes pulled out of them both either silently or
accompanied by cries,
depending on the mood and how it goes. Afterwards, they normally
collapse side by side,
sleeping it off.
This time, Gunn wakes up - probably a siren in the distance that didn't
jibe with whatever
he was dreaming about - and can't just shake it off and close his eyes
again. He pushes
himself up to sitting, swinging his legs out of the bed, and goes to
stare out the window.
The rain's beating down outside, a steady fall of water from the sky.
He forces himself not
to glance back at the bed, where he knows Wes'll be looking damn
fuckable. He looks
fuckable most of the day and night, but at the moment, Gunn can
guarantee that his face'll
be soft, having lost most of the hardness it's gained over the past few
years. Cordy and
Angel can tell him endless stories of a naive Wesley Wyndham-Price who
wouldn't say boo
to a goose, that fainted when presented with anything remotely scary and
would give it up
at the slightest mention of pain. He wouldn't recognise that Wesley,
because the Wes he
first met was the one who'd already been carved up with a knife and
broken glass by
psychotic bitch. Sure, there was still a stutter and shit, but the
current version is so far
removed from the Wes he first met, you could mistake them for different
wants to watch the rain for the moment, and let it wipe all thoughts of
emotion from his
head. Gunn can handle straight sex, given at any time he wants it, with
no-questions-asked camaraderie thrown in. Tells himself it's what he
needs at the moment.
Tells himself he doesn't want to deal with shit like snuggling. He sure
isn't going to think of
the warm feeling he gets sometimes during the post-sex lethargy.
Because this is better than what he once had. The last thing he wants
to think of is the
way his heart crashed and burned when Fred told him it just wasn't going
to work out.
He'd loved her, let himself really love someone for the first time, shut
the reality of the
world around them out enough to forget his damn *job* when he was
absorbed in her.
Doing that had almost got them killed a couple of times. He'd been so
wrapped up in it that
he'd defended those mistakes to other people. But now she's gone. Once
it was clear that
she wasn't going to come back to him, that she'd found a nice college
professor who wasn't
going to interfere with the job, and who knew what she was talking about
started going on about mechanical whosit and formulae. Who had more
just knowing how to kill demons. She hasn't left AI, but she's not
having anything more to
do with him beyond work-colleague shit.
--Two months ago--
Fred had made it clear that she didn't think the relationship was going
anywhere. Which is
why he ended up in that bar, trying to drown his sorrows. He was far
enough gone that he
wasn't that surprised when from behind him Wes asked in tones of
"Little out of your way, isn't it? I never thought you'd end up in one
"Life shits on us all, Wes. Now fuck off."
Dry chuckle as he draws up the other chair to the table without asking.
"That tone indicates
it's either women trouble or getting fired. Since I haven't heard of
anytime recently, I'd say the most likely one is women trouble. Am I
"Yeah, you're right. Fred dumped me."
"My condolences." The waitress comes up. "Bring the bottle over."
"Sir, he's a little..." She protests.
"It's for both of us. And we're quite capable of taking the full
consequences of alcohol
poisoning upon our own heads, I assure you."
So he and Wes drink. And when it's time to throw them out, Wes
stretches. "I have more
alcohol back at my flat. Coming?"
Gunn nods, gets up, his brain not yet blurred enough for his liking and
follows Wes out.
They walk down the streets. He'd forgotten how close this place was to
Inside, Wes heads for the fridge. "Beer?"
"Yeah. 'S good." Gunn collapses on the couch, craning his head back to
look round this
apartment he hasn't been to in months. Used to be round here every
other night, before
all that shit went down. Hasn't changed much. Over in the corner
there's an office vibe.
Signs of Wes being organised and making it on his own.
Wes comes back with the beer and sits down next to him. They drink for
wordlessly, until that can's finished. Wes looks over, about to ask if
Gunn wants another,
when Gunn pulls him into a kiss. Wes stills for a second, responds -
damn, the man's
good kisser - and pulls back, seamlessly. "Are you entirely sure this
is what you want?"
"Shut the fuck up, Wes." Gunn replies, gripping the front of Wes'
sweater and pulling him
back in. He's trying not to come off as desperate as he shoves his
tongue into Wes' mouth,
trying to use the flavour of Wes' mouth to distract himself. Whisky and
a complete absence
of tacos. Other food, but no tacos. That's what's important. The
stubble and thinner lips
are even better than the lack of tacos at reminding himself that this
isn't Fred, will never be
Fred. Never mind the superficial resemblances he's had pointed out to
him before. Mostly
by his ex-gang and Cordy. Gunn can accept that, though. So he's got
Skinny white brunettes with glasses, big brains and an accent. There's
worse things. He's
heard that the Slayer in Sunnydale's major weakness is vamps, and that's
Eventually Wes pulls them to their feet and backs Gunn towards his
bedroom. They miss
slightly, ending up against the wall next to the door. Wes' hands slide
into the back of his
trousers, cupping his ass and grinding up against Gunn. The feel of the
hard, hot length of
cock against his own makes Gunn gasp at the shock of it, causing Wes to
bite his lower lip
gently. But it feels so damn good, so he grinds back. He wants this.
Never done it before
with a guy, but it's not that different, right?
Gunn slides his hand under Wes' sweater, feeling soft skin and the
raised lines of scars.
Lots of scars. Wes' hands on his skin are rough, slender fingers and
palms covered in
calluses - the kind you get from regular gun, axe and sword use. Pen
calluses on the side
of his third finger and thumb on his right hand. Just different enough
so he can't confuse
him with anyone else.
Wes bites his way down Gunn's neck, worrying his collarbone. Tugs at
Gunn's shirt. "This is
coming off." Gunn nods, grabs the bottom and peels it off to drop on the
floor. When it's
off, he's suddenly kissed into the wall so his head and body make an
audible thunk against
it, only to be jerked forward again. He reaches out his hands in an
attempt to steady
himself and encounters bare flesh. His brain registers the fact that
Wes must've taken his
sweater off, while Gunn was engaged in taking his shirt off. However,
he's left no time to
think as he's being jerked forward again, his feet stumbling to catch up
and bumping into
Wes' feet as they try to get some balance.
Onto the bed and Wes is frantically fumbling with their belts and
zippers, shoving their
jeans and boxers down for access. Gunn catches his hips and pulls him
onto the bed,
where they roll a couple of times until Gunn's on top, and they're
grinding against each
other in an easy motion until Wes suddenly grabs his hips and stops him.
Flips them over,
scoots himself up so he's crouched over Gunn. One more suck on Gunn's
lower lip, then
Wes is rummaging in the side draw. There's the sound of foil tearing,
and oh, fuck - but
Gunn asked for this, he started it, and no matter what, Wes hasn't ever
hurt him. Guess he
can trust him in this. He kicks his jeans the rest of the way off from
where they were still
tangled round his legs.
There's pressure at his ass, Wes' other hand's rubbing at his stomach,
palm pressed down
so it's half soothing, half arousing. He feels one finger slick with
something slide in,
followed by another, and Gunn's forcing himself to relax as Wes scissors
his fingers to
stretch him. Wes removes his fingers after what seems like ages, and
presses himself right
up against him, arranging Gunn's legs around his waist so they don't get
in the way, then
Gunn gets the burn as Wes pushes in. It's difficult not to wince - the
fingers were okay, but
this is bigger. With the wince, Wes leans forward to kiss him again,
this time using the kiss
as a soothing gesture, stubble rasping against Gunn's cheek. Wes' hand
that was on his
chest moves up to stroke Gunn's jaw, waiting for him to relax. When the
pain starts to
recede, he nods, to tell Wes to start moving.
It's fucking odd, but after a bit it feels great, something he wants
more of, faster and now.
He squeezes Wes' waist with his thighs, moving his hands down to grip
Wes' ass. Wes
gets the picture and starts moving faster. There's echoes in that of
the way they used to
be able to communicate wordlessly, before other people came on the
scene. A little
movement in the right way and you just know what's wanted or needed
without a word
being said. The thrusting and friction combine to carry him away, and
he vaguely registers
Wes coming a few moments after him before he blacks out.
Gunn woke up after the first time to find Wes arranged against him and
the sheets drawn
up to waist level. When Wes woke up, there wasn't any discomfort, or
many words spoken
at all, just acceptance, and Gunn was pretty sure that he was welcome
any time after that.
The next couple of times confirmed it, when he showed up with a movie -
one of the
spaghetti westerns, he thinks - and during one of the quiet bits, they
started making out
on the couch, pretty quickly moving to a place where two guys easily
over six foot could do
it comfortably. Sometimes when he's come over, there's been no sex, but
because they're exhausted from whatever they've been doing earlier in
the day or night.
A sound from the bed makes Gunn look back. Wes has woken up - you can
tell that by the
way he's shaking himself out a bit. Yeah, he's got the soft look going
on, but it's starting to
recede as he becomes fully conscious, the defences go up, and the
experience flood back in. He ignores the slight twinge in his stomach,
and stares out at the
A moment later, Wes asks from the bed, "Do you see anything out there?"
"Nope, just rain." Gunn replies, getting up and moving back to the bed,
sliding back under the sheets so he's touching Wes again.
"Mmm-hmm." Wes answers distractedly, reaching out a hand to trace
designs on the base
of Gunn's spine. Pretty soon after, he's dozing again, leaving Gunn to
watch the rain.